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Fellow board members,

Gonna take a bit of mod license and pin a thread of support for our brother in Wiz-dom, Tricky-Kid. Not sure how this thread will evolve and if Tricky will log back into this site. But I'm hoping he does.

I imagine that here, we'll provide both written support and, perhaps, other forms of support.

(If you're reading this and are not sure what it's all about, please see the game thread for the Wiz/Pelicans game on 1/29/17).

Tricky, we're all thinking about you.

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Tricky, PM me (or post publicly) your skrill info.

I was thinking of starting a kickstarter for Tricky kid?
Nothing major, but I figured if we could all send him just 5 bucks or so, he'd be able to live for a while?

Thanks, really hope that Tricky is ok. Good to read the supportive posts on the Pelicans GT.

AFM wrote:I was thinking of starting a kickstarter for Tricky kid?
Nothing major, but I figured if we could all send him just 5 bucks or so, he'd be able to live for a while?

Cool.

Skril is, from what I can gather, similar to paypal. Tricky had posted his skirl info, then edited it out. I know he has an account via there that could be used to wire him a few bucks. Hope he can log in.

Someone get this Gortat...I bet he would help. Don't want to see a young kid go out like that.

Good stuff Pine. Thanks for being a positive mod, as opposed to Monte and Nate

AFM wrote:I was thinking of starting a kickstarter for Tricky kid?
Nothing major, but I figured if we could all send him just 5 bucks or so, he'd be able to live for a while?

Works for me

TGW wrote:Someone get this Gortat...I bet he would help. Don't want to see a young kid go out like that.

I tweeted at Gortat earlier tonight. I hope he sees it.

Tricky_Kid wrote:I am ill and I need a new liver. But this is not the worst thing. Debts and other stuff which I am not proud off. I was a good person but addiction is a strange thing. I never smoke, do drugs but couldn't stop betting. I always told myself that everyone should received second chance. But if I had third, and another and couldn't find a way out of this mess I don't deserve to live and to be a problem for my family. Especially for my mom who sacrifice own life to raise us and now she is ashamed of me
Monte sent me a link with places where I can receive a help -> I try go there at morning. it's funny I am sitting one street away from this place which Monte sent me. I couldn't do it if it would be in other cities but this is a strange coincidense.
I am really scared of consequences, other people talking about me. This will be a hell whatever I do.
Dude thanks for sharing this. I really do!

Tricky. Brother far away. Here is what I want you to do. Imagine just for a second that you manage to live through this. Picture yourself somehow in the far distant future looking back on this moment. You needed help and you reached out and people sent you goodwill and care. For what, for nothing. Just because the universe has a kinda **** up sense of humor, and by silly coincidence you share moments of happiness with a bunch of total strangers when your ridiculous team wins. And somehow in the future you get past this point and look back. And see yourself now. And recognize yeah you are blessed. Surgery saved your life for a moment. And gave you a chance. Maybe extra life. To endure a little longer.

What I want you to do is imagine that moment in the future, looking back at right now. And promise yourself right now if you do get to that point you will send back this message to yourself "it's okay man, we made it, it gets better".

Once in my life I was at that same point you were: ashamed and hating on myself. Kinda hopeless. Among other things I'd cut a girl who asked me to, with a razor, in patterns, because she wanted scars or something stupid, and it ruined my friendship with her best friend my girlfriend and nearly got me kicked out of school and I was sick of myself. Living on the top floor of a building it woulda been easy to step out onto the roof and whatnot. And instead sad as I was I said I hope I do get through this, and hope I do look back at this point and tell myself its okay, you make it, its worth it.

And in that moment of thinking that I suddenly felt this flood of good humor. Wave after wave of it. And every time I tell this story I think back on that point and send back good feelings of all the stuff I have gone through that made it worth it. Ive had a messed up year myself, from other dumb decisions I make at times, money issues, tax bull, life, love, crazy stories no one would believe -- and still its always worth it to wonder what is next. There's often something better. There will be **** that is worse too. Holding my dying infant son from miscarriage in my hands as he passed. Far worse. But if not for living past that moment I would not have held my daughter either. And she cracks me up every day. So. All Im saying is, promise yourself if you do make it, look back and send YOURSELF back the reassurance that you make it, and **** is worth it, often if not all the time.

And if you don't make it well heck, send me success in any venture I finish, or a winning lottery ticket if you have any influence on that from the other side I'm joking because hell we're Wizards fans, we have to have a sense of humor to make this thing work.

No matter what I send you all the peace that Dat can muster up, Because he used to be a caustic mother fxxxxxker and if he can reach spiritual enlightenment then there's hope for any of us. Must be some divinity somewhere.

Your friend doc. Let me know how it goes. Stuff will still suck but hey, maybe some days will suck better than others.

Doc, thanks for the words. You're one of the best.

Tricky, I'm praying for you brother. You're in crisis right now, and it probably feels like you're alone. Just know that you're not. You're connected to us and we care about you.

Depression can feel like an inescapable Hell when you hit the bottom of it. Something in your brain that you can't control goes wrong and all of your anxiety and guilt get blown way out of proportion. To the point it overwhelms you. And it can go on like that for a while. But it gets better. I promise you it does. You get through those low points and come out the other end alive and eventually your brain chemistry starts to rebalance and you feel normal again. When you hit that nadir, you just have to focus on making it through. Survive. You have to live to see the next day. Life hasn't shown all of its wonders to you yet, and you would be amazed to find out all of the people that love you and want you in their lives. Past, present, and future.

One more thing, you've just had major surgery. Post-operative depression is a common complication and I'm sure that it can be severe. Just know that it is a medical condition, it is not your fault in any way. You do not deserve it, it's one of those things beyond our control that just happens. And you can not trust the anxious and desperate thoughts and emotions that your brain is producing, it has been thrown completely out of tune by all of the things that have happened to you. I think it's a great idea to seek help so you don't have to fight this on your own. It sounds like monte gave you some places to look at for finding the help you need. I'm really glad to hear that and I hope you can use them.

Keep your chin up. Keep fighting back against your illness and your depression. You're a great guy and you can absolutely beat this. We are all rooting for you.

Good stuff all around. I'm drunk as ****.
I'll start a kickstarter tomorrow.

Just a few bucks each will change his life.

Hi guys. Yes I edited my skrill info cause I didn't want to beg for help. I feel ashamed about it. I went for help for catholic church where Monte sent me link and they told me sorry we are open from monday-friday. If U need help go to psychologist. What a helpful advice... Really I need to back to my home I need to buy the ticket. For 100% I won't log in again no money left in my pocket.
If skrill will work I'll give You my promise I l try to give back everything as soon as I can.

my email adress is trickykid17@gmail.com. Thank You for everything

Tricky, I know I don't post a ton on the Wiz board, but I read it daily as I like your team and your fanbase is just awesome.

Wanted to say keep your chin up and stick in there. I'm thinking of you and you're in my prayers.

doclinkin wrote:

Tricky_Kid wrote:I am ill and I need a new liver. But this is not the worst thing. Debts and other stuff which I am not proud off. I was a good person but addiction is a strange thing. I never smoke, do drugs but couldn't stop betting. I always told myself that everyone should received second chance. But if I had third, and another and couldn't find a way out of this mess I don't deserve to live and to be a problem for my family. Especially for my mom who sacrifice own life to raise us and now she is ashamed of me
Monte sent me a link with places where I can receive a help -> I try go there at morning. it's funny I am sitting one street away from this place which Monte sent me. I couldn't do it if it would be in other cities but this is a strange coincidense.
I am really scared of consequences, other people talking about me. This will be a hell whatever I do.
Dude thanks for sharing this. I really do!

Tricky. Brother far away. Here is what I want you to do. Imagine just for a second that you manage to live through this. Picture yourself somehow in the far distant future looking back on this moment. You needed help and you reached out and people sent you goodwill and care. For what, for nothing. Just because the universe has a kinda **** up sense of humor, and by silly coincidence you share moments of happiness with a bunch of total strangers when your ridiculous team wins. And somehow in the future you get past this point and look back. And see yourself now. And recognize yeah you are blessed. Surgery saved your life for a moment. And gave you a chance. Maybe extra life. To endure a little longer.

What I want you to do is imagine that moment in the future, looking back at right now. And promise yourself right now if you do get to that point you will send back this message to yourself "it's okay man, we made it, it gets better".

Once in my life I was at that same point you were: ashamed and hating on myself. Kinda hopeless. Among other things I'd cut a girl who asked me to, with a razor, in patterns, because she wanted scars or something stupid, and it ruined my friendship with her best friend my girlfriend and nearly got me kicked out of school and I was sick of myself. Living on the top floor of a building it woulda been easy to step out onto the roof and whatnot. And instead sad as I was I said I hope I do get through this, and hope I do look back at this point and tell myself its okay, you make it, its worth it.

And in that moment of thinking that I suddenly felt this flood of good humor. Wave after wave of it. And every time I tell this story I think back on that point and send back good feelings of all the stuff I have gone through that made it worth it. Ive had a messed up year myself, from other dumb decisions I make at times, money issues, tax bull, life, love, crazy stories no one would believe -- and still its always worth it to wonder what is next. There's often something better. There will be **** that is worse too. Holding my dying infant son from miscarriage in my hands as he passed. Far worse. But if not for living past that moment I would not have held my daughter either. And she cracks me up every day. So. All Im saying is, promise yourself if you do make it, look back and send YOURSELF back the reassurance that you make it, and **** is worth it, often if not all the time.

And if you don't make it well heck, send me success in any venture I finish, or a winning lottery ticket if you have any influence on that from the other side I'm joking because hell we're Wizards fans, we have to have a sense of humor to make this thing work.

No matter what I send you all the peace that Dat can muster up, Because he used to be a caustic mother fxxxxxker and if he can reach spiritual enlightenment then there's hope for any of us. Must be some divinity somewhere.

Your friend doc. Let me know how it goes. Stuff will still suck but hey, maybe some days will suck better than others.

It silly but I thought I got hell on earth here. I stuck here on train station without money, food etc. 7 minutes left till I will be offline but last few hours I wrote with ya all makes me to be positive. I never thought that people which doesn't know me can help me...

If there's a GoFundMe or something set up soon, I'd be glad to contribute.

There's nothing harder than getting back on your feet when you (at least think) that you've hit rock bottom. Thats the thing about the ever turning wheel that is our lives, sometimes youre down the bottom getting crushed in the dirt, but you have to remember that the wheel keeps turning and you'll be up again soon.

A couple of year ago I was broke. I was studying in the miserable town of Leicester, UK. The biggest shithole in the entire United Kingdom. The town that looks like an outcome of some mad urban idiot play: the fuc-d up mash of Detroit and the darkest, scariest areas of Glasgow. Post-industrial hell in the very heart of England. Full of weird people, drags (kinda 80s style with a lot of needles etc.), gangs, fights, shooting etc.
I worked simultaneously in the plastic factory, as a bartender on Leicester Tigers stadium (rugby club, one of the biggest in Europe) and in a huge pub in the city center. Occasionally I went to work in some other jobs around the area, you know, all things to earn some money. Why? Since I was a kid I was taught to not take money from other people, even if you are completely screwed. My mom used to tell me 'you have to work for yourself, no matter how hard it will be'. So I never took any money from my parents, at least not since I was 17/18. In Leicester I was on my own. I had literally £5 when I came to the UK and I had to live in there. From plastic factory, where I worked during weekends, I had ca £400 monthly, enough to pay for my rent. Pub jobs gave me ca £300 to live in the town. Out of this £300 I had to pay at least half for uni stuff: copying, materials, books etc. So I lived in this crappy town for about £150-£200 monthly. 6-8 pounds daily. Enough to buy bread, some fruit and once a time a can of beer (if I wasn't hungry). Those additional jobs gave me some sort of 'security', for instance additional £100 to buy new shoes or pants. Well, I spend them on alcohol instead. Just to not think about this place and .. oh well, just to not think at all.

I studied in the same time. Had to write two dissertations - to both of the universities I studied on (DMU in Leicester and third year in Krakow, Poland). I was literally awake for 18 hours daily out of which almost 90% took me to work and study. I couldn't afford to go out, I couldn't afford to visit my friends, I couldn't get out of town once a time because every single day, two days without work meant I would be out of money and, eventually, out of food. I was 22, I should have had fun not this bull.

It's not as sad or as moving as some other stories here, I know that. But I feel you. I know what it takes to get out of the deep **** YOU feel you are in. Sometimes it is your decisions, sometimes your addictions and sometimes (like in my case) it's the **** time you have to get through and nobody really cares how you feel.

It took me a couple of months to get out of this. I graduated and started to work in other places, moved out of Leicester in the very day I submitted my dissertation. But when you work as hard for 12 months, 16-18 hours daily, your brain is basically dead-ish inside. I worked my ass to feel anything after those months. To feel joy and have fun again. It took me some harsh time but I did it and I believe you can do it as well bro! I know I don't want to do that anymore. I don't mind any job - and I was literally working in so many areas that I mean ANY - but I worked my ass to get out of there and be able to live my life as I want to. I know you can do it as well Kid!

Keeping my fingers crossed!

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Tricky, I tried to send you some $$ via multiple credit cards in Skrill and all of them were declined -- I wonder if it's me or if its a USA thing. Going to have to tie my new Skrill account to my bank account, but Skrill says it takes 2-3 business days.

I'm going to ask anyone on the board interested in dropping you some $$, even a little bit, to try and open their own free skrill account and see if it works for them.

BOARD MEMBERS: If anyone gets a donation to Tricky to work from your new Skrill account, post that here. I will send you $$ via paypal or meet up to give you cash.

If anyone needs Tricky's email address or real name for Skrill's send money feature, PM me. I have it.

Pine

I want to contribute as soon as I can understand the mechanism for doing so.