Doctor MJ wrote:kaima, understandable you'd feel the need to respond. I'm responding publicly here because you wrote publicly. I don't want to get into a long public conversation here though I'd appreciate you taking this private if you want to continue.
So why not lead the way, by example?
I didn't feel that I was particularly personal with you, yet you're now being specifically personal about my posting history in a public forum.
While asking me not to reply publicly to that.
Huh.
You mention that I asked you to join the project. This is partly true. I asked you if you wanted to join the project with the understanding that it was a long-term commitment, and you agreed.
And life happened, as did disenchantment that came about due to standards that were disturbingly close to what Gongxi has mentioned.
I'm not perfect, and I didn't necessarily live up to my word, point blank. But I don't know if I believe that the project lived up to its argument, as antecedent.
Which frustrated me at the same time I had other commitments.
I did this after you'd made some strong posts arguing for Karl Malone in the project threads...and you lasted in the project basically until Malone's rookie year and then disappeared.
Certainly, the idea that I would stick in the project for Malone's rookie year is...bizarre.
I certainly didn't vote for him. In fact, the last year I voted for him was 1989.
And I made it beyond that rookie year, as point of fact.
But it seems that you think my contribution is limited to Karl Malone. I wouldn't agree, and it wasn't my purpose to only vote for Malone seasons or push Malone in a generalized context, as its own or only purpose. I argued for him because I think he's one of the players that gets hurt the most by team-result arguments, as a macro bit of revisionism.
You entered the discussion for this year's POY after the playoffs had ended, and did so to criticize people before saying you didn't want to be involved if it meant dealing with the things you criticized.
Hm?
I believe I said that I'd bow out if not given time to consider my vote. I never said that anyone had to agree with me.
All I did was point out my disagreement with certain arguments, particularly Dirk's unquestionable ascendency.
And now when I make a decision to not bend the rules for you, and after you fail to give the effort you committed yourself to, you take the time to tell the guy who has given orders of magnitude more effort to build a project that is fun, community-building, and educational what all he has to re-do in order to make it meet with your logical standards.
I notice that you're being very broad about this, instead of really considering my arguments on a logical scale.
You're emotionalizing this. And attacking me personally.
While I questioned your logic, I don't believe I questioned your character, or attacked you personally.
As I said, I replied on logical grounds. I'm not seeing any counter-argumentation to those points.
I note this without malice, as I have never disliked you, or thought of you as some pernicious force.
Even now, I just question your, cause and effect, overall analysis and logical application so far as rules in this project. That's it.
And that's the level I'd prefer arguing on.
If I'm not, now, allowed to disagree with you on logical standards, well, then I'll leave.
But ratiocination is rather inherent, and yet you're trying to make this a subjective plea on an emotional scale -- that because you run the project, you shouldn't be questioned in this manner or on grounds of context and logic. That's what I see. Analytically.
Do you see how you're coming across here?
I...wait, I've got a kettle whistling, and a pot of coffee to start.
I think you're intelligent and knowledgeable, and if you'd done what others had done I'd have given you a vote here.
Like I said, I could have managed votes throughout.
I didn't because I didn't think that would be coherent to my history of detailing my beliefs.
But if an all-present vote is all that matters, then, yes I failed. Blatantly.
I also had my doubts: about the project, the assumptions made on team result and legacy, as well as my ability to find enough tape as we went on to support my beliefs. Or my votes.
I am not punishing you.
I know.
I don't feel all that bad about it.
My point is, what's the macro-logic?
If the all-present vote is required, I failed before I started. And it would be a mistake -- if this isn't some attempt at punishment, or negative-reinforcement -- to consider my earlier arguments and to count my votes.
My point is that the damage, if that's how you see it, has already been done. So why would I be stopped from voting?
Logically, it appears to be punishment. That's what I see.
Without rancor. I honestly think you're generally a credible source, even if I disagree with you on occasion.
I am however rather bemused by your intellectual hubris.
I don't believe I'm smarter than you, or the room.
But I do disagree with your logic here.
There is no such thing as a perfect project. I don't need your IQ, I need your BBIQ and your elbow grease.
And I believe that I provided more of that than some people that voted in far more POY threads.
Hence, my disagreement with you.
It's pretty simply. Really.